Hi, I’m Jodie. Welcome to my blog!
If you couldn’t already tell by the title, I’m infertile. That’s right. I said it. I said it on the internet for all the world to read, and I’m not ashamed.
That diagnosis used to bring me so much shame. So much so, that I never spoke about it. I didn’t tell anyone at first, except for my husband. I kinda always knew deep down something was wrong (I’ll get into my medical history in a later post), but I was very much in denial about it all. So when the doctor officially diagnosed me with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (
PCOS), I knew something was seriously wrong, and getting pregnant wasn’t going to be as easy as everyone had told me it would be.
Fast forward three years and here we are, still without a baby, but with a much healthier attitude. Don’t get me wrong, I still have my dark days. I still get mad and bitter and I still have a tendency to shut myself out from everyone. Things aren’t perfect and they probably never will be for me, even if we’re lucky enough to conceive one day. I’m just a lot more mindful of those days now. I recognize them for what they are, I let myself sulk, and I move on. I think one of the best ways I’ve been dealing with this whole crazy diagnosis is to talk about it and to bring some awareness to infertility as an that so many couples deal with. Whether it’s sharing a meme, or tweeting about something someone said to me, I feel so much better when I talk about it. Even if it makes everyone around me uncomfortable and I only get one or two likes (shout out to Haley and Jen for always liking my tweets. I see you and I love you guys!), it makes me feel SO much better. It’s out there. People can read it. I can read it. I don’t know if it’s some kind of self-validation or what, but it’s really empowering to confront the things that scare us.
It’s why I wanted to start this blog. I’ve been thinking about starting it for a while now. I’m a writer at heart and it’s a great way to document everything that’s been going on and maybe even help someone else along the way.
I know my non-TTC (trying to conceive) friends will find this blog, read it, and probably never comment. And that’s okay too. I know infertility makes people uncomfortable. Especially my friends who already have children. What do you say to your infertile friend? (I’ll save that for another post too) For now, don’t say anything. Just read. Just listen.
So, that’s it for now. I hope I can keep up with this thing. I actually paid for the domain because I thought it would help me keep on task. I’m cheap. If I pay for something, I’m gonna use it.
I named the blog “hello, infertility” because no one ever asks to be burdened with infertility, it just kinda shows up at your front door like, “Hi, I’m here to ruin everything!” But it’s there and you can’t make it go away overnight, so we might as well invite it in and deal with it.
Take care folks,