Infertility is draining: mentally, physically, emotionally, and most of all, financially. Especially if you’re one of the lucky few, like me, whose insurance companies refuse to cover anything and you have to pay for everything completely out of pocket. Yeah, that sucks, but I digress. So, I bet you’re all wondering how we afforded a trip to Mexico when our infertility treatments had drained us financially. Well, we started to save to IVF a little while ago and we used the money to go to Mexico instead.
Yep, you read that right. We used some of our IVF savings to go to Mexico. WHY? Because saving for IVF, talking about IVF, and even thinking about IVF is hell stressful and I don’t think we’re there yet. That’s great if you are, and I’m sorry if it’s been told it’s your only option. I truly am sorry, but we’re still exploring other options like keto and lifestyle and we’re not at the IVF stage just yet. Maybe in a year or two, but right now, we’re enjoying this little fertility treatment break.
So, it made total sense to take some of that money and treat ourselves to a really nice holiday and that’s exactly what it was. We had the best time and it was exactly what we needed.
Since we started trying to have a baby, I don’t think I’ve ever really relaxed. Not even after our failed IUIs when everyone was telling me I need to relax. That just stressed me out even more. So when we got to Mexico, I promised myself I would do what I wanted to do and I would just relax. Even if that meant sitting in the sun for hours on end, accomplishing nothing, just because it felt so damn good.
I completely changed my mindset and I’m so proud of myself for doing so. I am normally a very switched-on person, yes, I’m easy-going, but I am also a huge worrier. I worry about everything. I worry about things that haven’t even happened yet because, in my mind, there is a chance they might happen. I tried my very best not to do that in Mexico. I tried to completely unplug my worried mind and just enjoy everything around me. Just enjoy doing absolutely nothing and it was amazing.
I went swimming every day. I ate bread and dessert and I even drank. I drank! If you know me, you’ll know that I am not much of a drinker these days. Alcohol is full of sugar and because of my PCOS, I try and limit my drinking to very special occasions. My partying days are LONG gone. But I definitely enjoyed a few drinks while in Mexico. I didn’t get drunk or make myself sick or anything. I just enjoyed some drinks completely guilt-free. I haven’t done that in a very, very long time.
I also did something I normally would have been too scared to do. I rappelled into a cenote! Yes, just like Indiana Jones and it was awesome. I have to admit, I was a little scared at the thought of plummeting down into a dark cave, feet first, completely unaware of what was waiting for me at the bottom, but I felt like a new person that week, and new Jodie was totally up for it. Old Jodie has been through some shit. Old Jodie has been knocked around and beat up and dragged through the mud a time or two, so new Jodie was feeling pretty brave that day. My husband? Not so much. He has a pretty serious fear of heights, but I am proud of him for doing it too. It took a lot for him to even put the harness on. I could see how unsure he was, but he pushed through his fear and we got to descend together. To top it all off, the photographers in the cenote took a seriously bad-ass picture of the two of us descending together. I am definitely printing and framing this one to show our kids one day.
We booked this excursion through Alltournative, if anyone is interested. I highly recommend checking them out if you plan on visiting the Riviera Maya area of Mexico.
I also wanted to write a little something on how it was to go off of keto for a week and then transition back on. I broke my keto streak the night before we fly out at one of my favourite restaurants in Halifax called Darrell’s. Their Original Pita Club is worth being knocked out of ketosis. From there, it was carb city. I felt pretty good the first few days in, but I soon noticed I was hungry all of the time. I couldn’t wait for lunch and I always had to snack a little before dinner. That was probably the biggest change I felt while off keto, which is funny because always being hungry has been my reality for so long and definitely one of the reasons why I’ve always struggled with my weight. Ask anyone in my family, I was always hungry. Always. I actually had to abandon a full cart of shopping at Wal-Mart once because I was too hungry. I had to leave to go eat and when I returned, my items had been put back. It was that bad. I started carrying snacks with me at all times because my blood sugars would rise and fall multiple times a day. It’s amazing how keto has changed that.
I can’t remember the last time I have high or low blood sugar levels. I haven’t felt shaky, or sleepy after eating since starting keto. That’s how I know it’s been a good move for me. I feel good and I feel a lot more confident in my body. I even strutted around in a couple of bikinis and I posted this photo on Instagram. If you had told 16-year-old Jodie that I would one day post a picture of myself in a bikini on social media, I would have laughed in your face. But here I am. Half-naked on the internet. Feeling great!
I gained 7 lb in Mexico, which I think is pretty good considering everything I ate. I am down 4 lbs already and I am already fully back on the keto train. Still working towards my goal of regulating my cycles. I ovulated twice since starting keto. I want to keep going and give this way of eating the best shot I can.
I thought a lot about how far I’ve come while in Mexico. I thought a lot about how happy the trip made me and how I deserved to be happy. I earned that trip and I’ll earn more. I love traveling. It brings me so much joy and I will continue to travel, without guilt, because I deserve to do so. Some people might call me selfish for spending money on travel when I could be saving for treatments. Well, those people can mind their own business. I’ve spent a lot of time and a lot of money worrying about our infertility journey and investing in a lot of dead ends. I’m really tired of all of that. I’m going to switch gears and invest in myself and my happiness.