I had a baby

I haven’t posted on this blog in over a year and a lot has happened since then, as the title suggests. I just reactivated this blog as I’d like to write about my pregnancy and birth story, and also about my feelings surrounding pregnancy and motherhood after infertility. Spoiler: they’re very complicated.

I got pregnant in August and I gave birth to my son almost three weeks ago. Wow. What a whirlwind.

I hope reactivating my blog will encourage me to write and talk about my feelings, but I guess we’ll see. Wish me luck.

For now, I’m debating whether or not I should change the name of this blog. Part of me feels like it’s still appropriate because I am still dealing with the feelings I had before I got pregnant. Those thoughts and feelings run deep and I don’t think I’ll ever let them go, but I also don’t want to be insensitive to my sisters who are still battling infertility. I know how annoying “success” stories are.

Should we do another IUI?

TWW I swear. I have been asking myself this question nearly every day for the last couple of months … should we? Should we do another IUI?
Will it be different this time? I feel much better equipped this time?
Are we ready? Mentally? Financially? Are we REALLY ready?
I honestly don’t know.
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An honest infertility rant

25158481_1617136201713983_4906375168671975182_nI haven’t posted on here in AGES, and it’s mostly because I have been in such a bad mood lately about my infertility. I started this blog as kind of a digital diary. A place I could come to in a few years (after I’d hopefully conceived successfully) and reflect on everything it took to get me to where I was the day I would read this. Continue reading An honest infertility rant

Mexico 2018

So happy to be at Chichen Itza. This was a bucket list moment for both of us.

Infertility is draining: mentally, physically, emotionally, and most of all, financially. Especially if you’re one of the lucky few, like me, whose insurance companies refuse to cover anything and you have to pay for everything completely out of pocket. Yeah, that sucks, but I digress. So, I bet you’re all wondering how we afforded a trip to Mexico when our infertility treatments had drained us financially. Well, we started to save to IVF a little while ago and we used the money to go to Mexico instead.

Wait. What?

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