An honest infertility rant

25158481_1617136201713983_4906375168671975182_nI haven’t posted on here in AGES, and it’s mostly because I have been in such a bad mood lately about my infertility. I started this blog as kind of a digital diary. A place I could come to in a few years (after I’d hopefully conceived successfully) and reflect on everything it took to get me to where I was the day I would read this. Continue reading An honest infertility rant

Mexico 2018

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So happy to be at Chichen Itza. This was a bucket list moment for both of us.

Infertility is draining: mentally, physically, emotionally, and most of all, financially. Especially if you’re one of the lucky few, like me, whose insurance companies refuse to cover anything and you have to pay for everything completely out of pocket. Yeah, that sucks, but I digress. So, I bet you’re all wondering how we afforded a trip to Mexico when our infertility treatments had drained us financially. Well, we started to save to IVF a little while ago and we used the money to go to Mexico instead.

Wait. What?

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What I dislike about the online infertility community

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Going through infertility is extremely lonely. Even if you have a great support system in place. Friends and family are great, but unless they’ve experienced infertility themselves, sometimes their words of encouragement can fall a little short. I mean, what do they know? They’ve never gone through any of this.  Continue reading What I dislike about the online infertility community

Keto update: Week Five

800px_COLOURBOX15668356 I experienced my first whoosh this week. At last!

I have been waiting for this to happen. Very patiently, I might add. And my patience has finally paid off. I’m down 5lbs. Just like that. I actually didn’t believe my scale this morning and jumped on and off of it several times to make sure my eyes weren’t deceiving me. I even moved it around my bathroom floor, just in case I hit an uneven spot and it threw off how my weight was dispersed. But every time, that 5lbs was nowhere to be found.

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Fertility must be nice

4db31aae9df24c778435a5f83d6b141bI think about this from time to time. How nice it would be to be fertile. To look over at my husband and say, “let’s have a baby.” Plan everything out and get a positive pregnancy test, just like that. Just like it’s supposed to be. Just like it should be, right?

I think about this a lot. Especially when I hear other women planning their families. They’ll talk about when they want to have kids, how many they want, and when they’re going to start trying. And I can’t help but think about my own conversations that I’ve had in the past. Similar conversations. Conversations that occurred, where in my mind, I was fertile. And let me tell you, it WAS nice. Fertility was an absolute dream.

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My secret life

https_images.genius.comff2ceaaa30176bc26282d0e3463af54b.300x300x1To all my fellow TTCers, do you ever feel like you’re leading a secret life?
A life you don’t really talk about, or post statuses about on social media. A life that you know might make others uncomfortable or bring about feelings of guilt. A life no one really knows about except for the most-trusted people in your inner circle.

I feel like I’m pretty open about my struggles with infertility and PCOS. I have become an advocate for myself and I definitely don’t shy away from educating others on the subject, but every once in awhile I can feel myself putting my guard up and retreating back into that secret life.  Continue reading My secret life

Keto update: Week 2

f0a462bd2ad8dd9b837816105f920981--keto-memes-keto-quotesI don’t know if it’s because my body loves storing fat or because I may have ovulated this weekend and my period is impending, but I haven’t lost any weight this week. According to my scale, I actually gained a pound. But it’s okay because I am still enjoying doing keto.

It may also have been that I ate WAY too much fat this weekend. I made these cookie dough fat bombs that were DELICIOUS. Maybe a little too delicious because they were all I wanted to eat. It might be because I had a Continue reading Keto update: Week 2

Infertility and mental health

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A very large media company in Canada is running an awareness campaign today to help relieve the stigma surrounding mental health by encouraging people to talk about their experiences and/or offer their support to those who need it. While I am not necessarily participating in this campaign, it has got me thinking about my own experiences with depression, anxiety,  and infertility.  Continue reading Infertility and mental health

PCOS and insulin: Is keto the solution?

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What a controversial little word. It seems like everyone is talking about keto right now. Some people are die-hard converts, while others instinctively dismiss it. How can eating bacon every day help you lose weight? Bacon is full of fat, and fat is bad, right?

Not necessarily.

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