I swear. I have been asking myself this question nearly every day for the last couple of months … should we? Should we do another IUI?
Will it be different this time? I feel much better equipped this time?
Are we ready? Mentally? Financially? Are we REALLY ready?
I honestly don’t know.
Continue reading Should we do another IUI?
I haven’t posted on here in AGES, and it’s mostly because I have been in such a bad mood lately about my infertility. I started this blog as kind of a digital diary. A place I could come to in a few years (after I’d hopefully conceived successfully) and reflect on everything it took to get me to where I was the day I would read this. Continue reading An honest infertility rant
I experienced my first whoosh this week. At last!
I have been waiting for this to happen. Very patiently, I might add. And my patience has finally paid off. I’m down 5lbs. Just like that. I actually didn’t believe my scale this morning and jumped on and off of it several times to make sure my eyes weren’t deceiving me. I even moved it around my bathroom floor, just in case I hit an uneven spot and it threw off how my weight was dispersed. But every time, that 5lbs was nowhere to be found.
Continue reading Keto update: Week Five
I think about this from time to time. How nice it would be to be fertile. To look over at my husband and say, “let’s have a baby.” Plan everything out and get a positive pregnancy test, just like that. Just like it’s supposed to be. Just like it should be, right?
I think about this a lot. Especially when I hear other women planning their families. They’ll talk about when they want to have kids, how many they want, and when they’re going to start trying. And I can’t help but think about my own conversations that I’ve had in the past. Similar conversations. Conversations that occurred, where in my mind, I was fertile. And let me tell you, it WAS nice. Fertility was an absolute dream.
Continue reading Fertility must be nice
To all my fellow TTCers, do you ever feel like you’re leading a secret life?
A life you don’t really talk about, or post statuses about on social media. A life that you know might make others uncomfortable or bring about feelings of guilt. A life no one really knows about except for the most-trusted people in your inner circle.
I feel like I’m pretty open about my struggles with infertility and PCOS. I have become an advocate for myself and I definitely don’t shy away from educating others on the subject, but every once in awhile I can feel myself putting my guard up and retreating back into that secret life. Continue reading My secret life
Another week of keto down and I’m feeling really good about it.
I’m not down any weight this week, which is kind of annoying, but I have suspicions that it’s because my period should be starting this weekend. Yes, you read that right, my period. And what is significant about getting my period you might ask. Well, it means I ovulated. Yep, I definitely ovulated! Continue reading Keto update: week 3
A very large media company in Canada is running an awareness campaign today to help relieve the stigma surrounding mental health by encouraging people to talk about their experiences and/or offer their support to those who need it. While I am not necessarily participating in this campaign, it has got me thinking about my own experiences with depression, anxiety, and infertility. Continue reading Infertility and mental health
I did it. I completed my first week of keto.
And you know what? It was actually REALLY easy.
Continue reading Update: A week of keto
What a controversial little word. It seems like everyone is talking about keto right now. Some people are die-hard converts, while others instinctively dismiss it. How can eating bacon every day help you lose weight? Bacon is full of fat, and fat is bad, right?
Continue reading PCOS and insulin: Is keto the solution?
If you’ve read previous blog posts then you’ll know that I recently tried Clomid again. I tried it about a year and a half ago when we first got in to see a fertility doctor. Clomid is usually the first course of action taken by doctors to treat infertility and anovulation, but it didn’t work for me at all. When the doctor recommended that we try it again, after three failed IUIs, a 6-month hormone break, and two natural miracle cycles, I was kinda excited. Maybe my new diet and lifestyle changes would help my body respond to the medication. Maybe I would eat better this time. Maybe I would stress less knowing what to expect. Maybe this would be how we finally got pregnant. Maybe we’d get twins out of the whole thing!
Lots of maybes here.
Continue reading Did this round of Clomid work?